heminTon

You told me that we are different..
You told me that we are special..
You told me that you needed me..
You told me that i am important..
You told me that friendship can last forever..
You told me that we could last forever…
You told me..

You thought that i betray you..
You thought that others betray you..
You thought that you did nothing wrong..
You thought that you are the only one..
You thought that i was not good enough..
You thought that i am not worth it..
You thought that we are not meant to be..
You thought that i am just another guy/girl..
You thought that i never knew better..
You thought that..

You might think that i am a piece of trash..
You might think i am so full of shit..
You might think i am too desperate….
You might think i am lame..
You might think…

Was i ever some one?
Was i ever the one?
Was i ever being considered as the one?
Was i just another passer by?
Was i pushing too hard?
Was i trying too hard?
Was i doing all rite?
Was i doing things rite?
Why did you leave?
Why did you walk away?
Why did you stop loving?
How didn’t you forget me?
How did your feelings go away?
How did you throw my keys away?
Why did you throw my keys away?
How am i to go on without you in my life?
How am i suppose to keep going when i am in the dark?
What went wrong?
What have i done?
What is the thing that i didn’t do?
Why is the tears never stops?
Why is it so pain?
Why is it that after the more happy i was, the more pain i felt inside..?
Why is my heart still cry when there are no more tears for me to shed..?
Why is it that when the pain goes a way, my life went with it..?
Why does it have to be this way?
Why did you go away……..?

I wanted to give..
I wanted to keep..
I wanted for it to be forever..
I wanted you to be happy..
I wanted to know more..
I wanted your understanding..
I wanted to love..
I wanted your love…
I wanted..

I thought that you would care..
I thought that you would notice..
I thought that you would understand..
I thought that you will never leave me behind..
I thought that you meant what you said..
I thought that you would never leave..
I thought that you would never leave again..
I thought that you would never hurt me..
I thought that you would never hurt me again..
I thought that you were the one..
I thought that you were the only one..
I thought that i was your only one..
I thought that it would never end..
I thought that that love last forever..
I thought that..

I never thought it would end this way..
I never wanted for it to be this way..
I never wanted to push you away..
I never wanted for you to be far away..
I never wanted for things to happen this way..
I never wanted to see you go..
I never wanted it to end…
I never wanted to hurt you..
I never..

I don’t know what should i do..
I don’t know what can i do..
I don’t know why there is this feeling deep inside of me..
I don’t know why suddenly my life has become so empty yet so full..
I don’t know why things can be in such conflict..
I don’t know why it’s getting harder and harder to go through each day..
I don’t know why life can be so cruel..
I don’t know why love can be so cruel..
I don’t know why you left..
I don’t know what you wanted..
I don’t know what should have been done..
I don’t know why I care so much..
I don’t know what love should be..
I don’t know why you walked away..
I don’t know…

I need help..
I need to know..
I need to understand..
I need to feel alive..
I need to be alive again..
I need to be myself again..
I need to feel useful..
I need my self-esteem..
I need my dream..
I need be appreciated..
I need to be needed..
I need to stop crying..
I need to stop the tears..
I need to stop the pain..
I need to quit thinking of you..
I need to move on..
I need to run away..
I need to be a man/woman again..
I need my pride..
I need my dignity..
I need…… you in my life…

You didn’t know how much i would give..
You didn’t know how far i would go..
You didn’t know why i acted so weird..
You didn’t know that i was so scared..
You didn’t know why i needed you so badly..
You didn’t know why i keep on coming..
You didn’t know how anxious i was..
You didn’t know how much i miss you..
You didn’t know how strong are my feelings..
You didn’t know that you were the one that keeps me going..
You didn’t know how much i needed you..
You didn’t know that i was always there for you..
You didn’t know how i felt when you weren’t there for me..
You didn’t know how much you’ve hurt me..
You didn’t know… how much i love you…

LOVE
has been overrated..
has been underrated..
has been misunderstood..
has been understood..
has been cherished..
has been hated…
has been through tough times to show what it is..
has made so many innocent soul die before their time..
has made so many dying came back a life..
has kept so many kept on going…
has made so many end their journey..
has been so hard for so many…

When we first met love..
it’s that strong feeling we have for another soul..
it’s that strong heart beat when we sees the other person..
it’s the time when we were more anxious seeing them but still anxious not been able to..
it’s the time when we started to give for no reason..
it’s the time that you feel you can flying..
it’s the time when you feel nothing is impossible..
it’s the time when you started felt like really living..
it’s the time that lazy has never been able to win you over..
it’s the time when you can wake up in the morning with a smelly mouth but still feels sweet..
it’s the time that you heart has sweet taste buds..
it’s the time when you would do anything..
it’s the time when we became blind but could keep walking….
and..
it’s the thing that make people suffer..
it’s the thing that crushes your heart..
it’s the thing that has became the source of the pain deep down..
it’s the thing that has became your life..
it’s the thing that has turn into your 1st priority..
it’s the thing that keep bugging you in your mind..
it’s the thing that makes you feel worthless..
it’s the thing that makes you feel useless..
it’s the thing that make you feel that you have gone crazy..
it’s the thing that makes you feel like you wanted to be miserable..
it’s the thing that makes you hate more then you ever could..

it should never have been..
ONE SIDED..
about money..
about what you wanted..
about what had happened..

it should have been..
from BOTH SIDES..
about how you both could live better..
what you both wanted..
about what you would do when some thing happened..
when TWO PERSON has the same feeling for each other..
when the other person WANTED AS MUCH AS as what you wanted..
when TWO PEOPLE are willing to stay together forever..
when BOTH are willing…
the ultimate of relationship..
best of friends..
peaceful..

I find love..
when i see old couples, quarrellings for the smallest things in the world every day, yet they stayed together…
when i see friends willing to help the others and don’t care whether they know or not…
when i see people donating not for fame or advertising…
when i see parents hitting their child but you could see that in their eyes, they care so much…
when i see patient..

it takes a long time to understand,some never had the chance to..
it takes a long time to understand,some never gave themselves a chance to..
it takes a long time to heal from the pain that love has brought to us..
it takes big effort to learn to be patient and trust the ones beside us..
it takes courage to keep going when every thing seems to be dying..
it takes lots more guts to keep believe in some thing that has hurt you more then you ever felt you could be…
it takes time to get to know yourself again..
it takes time to learn how not to lose yourself again..
it takes time to learn how not to lose yourself again by not keeping yourself in..
it takes time to heal……

I end this with a quote from The Hitch — “All of us are falling, that’s why we need love to make us feel like we’re flying”